Merry Christmas eh?

This is a warning. If anyone puts a negative comment on here, it will be deleted and you will possibly be defriended. If you don’t like what I write, tough shit. These are my thoughts and my opinions.

I have been out of work for a month. This was unexpected and following my bout with pnuemonia in October has left me totally broke. I have $3.00 in the bank. I have applied for roughly 28 jobs. I have had 3 interviews.

Today my car broke down and one of my pets is very ill.

The Unemployment Office AND Food Stamps both want me to drop out of college even though I have 4 classes left this semester AND I have a 4.0 GPA. My UE is still in limbo. If I drop out of school, I also face repaying my Pell Grants.

I am a very strong person and have made it through many things. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, homelessness and mental illness.

I am now at my breaking point.

I rarely ask for help. I prefer to handle my own shit my own way.

Well I have asked for help recently from friends and family. The ONLY person who has helped me has been my exhusband. Someone who doesn’t owe me anything but yet has helped me out.

That’s it though. Not even my own family will help me. Not even my so called friends.

So I hope everyone who has told me they cannot even spare a few dollars because well you know Christmas is coming up, has a MERRY CHRISTMAS.